SPIRITGIRL

Have been following a dream and trying something new?

Maybe you have been stepping bravely into new things that grow and expand you in ways designed to move you closer to the assignment that God has for you?    And day after day you are doing this thing

And one morning you wake up and you think to yourself, “What am I doing. Who do I think I am”…..

And everything that I know says to contract and stay small.

“Don’t move”

“Stay safe”

And after a quick shake in my boots, I remember that this is my ego or maybe the enemy and probably a bad mood of mine but more than anything else, this is not God. These are not the holy words whispered by a father who sets to anoint his daughter on a path that glorifies Him and heals others along the way.

So I do it

I dig a little deeper

I push past the resistance

I face the fear

The same fear that tells me to quit, tells me I am not qualified, tells me it was a stupid idea from the start. And so I sit at my desk and search for the words…the words in my heart that feel heavy today. And with the words, I search my soul for where God is pointing me                    

And as the words spill out on to the page, my prayer is that they will land on the woman that is hurting and searching for what feels like an absent Father. Or the other woman who is looking for encouragement to follow her dream. Or the other woman who is on her kitchen floor crying and desperate. Or the other woman who has not yet found the freedom that comes from finding your identity in Christ. And as I grapple for the language intended to seep into the soul of any one of these women, in hopes of bringing just one ounce of healing,

I hear God whisper… now is your time my daughters      

So together, let’s not let this darkness fool us

And let’s not allow discouragement to cause us to make a creative U-turn, at the pivotal junction of this starting point. And together, let’s trust and allow God to hold our hands as he leads us deeper into what he promises to be, a life of fulfillment and promise.

A life that is rich with the blessings of a life lived- well, with purpose and authenticity. One with hearts mended to a sovereign God that loves us back to health and healing through our brokenness.