It has been awhile since i have been here…like many months to be exact.
Yes~ I have sat at my desk, opened my computer and even started to pour my heart out into some meaningful devotion. And that is as far as I have been able to get….
There I sit- mind spinning, heart racing, knees bobbing…feeling like I am running a three legged race.
You see these days… my mind is like a scrambled egg. And when I sit down to write or journal or spill my very generous dose of daily emotions onto paper~~nothing happens. And in one minute I am distracted by something I need to purchase on Amazon or signing up for a class at the gym or organizing the kids sports schedules or adding to my grocery list…
Can you relate to that?
Emotion overload and information overload and decision-making overload, unfocused, unpolished, un-poised~~this is the name of today’s game.
I can’t find the peace, I can’t find the silence, I can’t find the soul care that I used to have when the rhythm of my days were manageable, predictable and static.
I can’t settle into the routine that I desperatly need to free my mind of the tangled frays of yarn that serve to distract and confuse me. I can’t settle into the routine that establishes my daily tasks and obligations, freeing my mind of space for creativity, prayer and rest.
So much has changed and I grieve for what once was. And despite my best attempts at maintaining daily spiritual practices and exercising that spiritual muscle…I just can’t get there.
But today I read a devotional that came as a welcomed reminder.
A reminder to sit in silence with God, for just one minute of each day…
In that one minute, God has the opportunity to renew my heart, cultivate my soul and free my mind of the burdens of this life. In that one minute, God has the opportunity to infuse the Spirit’s supernatural strength~ into my disjointed and fragmented being. In that one minute, God has the opportunity to erase my anxieties, calm my nerves and soothe my soul with his nurturing arms.
When I release and let go-I am acknowledging that “I need more of HIM and less of me”.
I’ve kept my feet on the ground, I’ve cultivated a quiet heart. Like a baby content in it’s mother’s arms, my soul is a baby content. Psalm 131:2
And perhaps, with this one minute of each day, I can begin a new routine and adopt new daily rhythms that have the power to serve me better than before this season of; long and hard and distraction and un-focus. Perhaps this will be where God shows me that he does all things for my good. Perhaps this will be where God shows up and shows off?
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28
And I know that where there is difficulty or loss or brokenness; there is opportunity. And it is at this very junction that our Heavenly Father shines down, to heal and restore~ our hurt, our pain, our confusion and our apathy.
And I believe that in just one minute of each day, as I choose to walk hand-in-hand with Jesus, he will anoint me with hope and abundance and joy. His spiritual refreshment will allow me to establish new routines and rhythms that mark the daily path chosen by HIM, ripe with new opportunity.
It’s just one minute, can you give him that gift of you’re time?